Faithful

I love it when I jot down inspirational things during a sermon and then leave them in my Bible to find months later. It’s like a little surprise reminder when I need it most. God’s pretty cool that way. This morning I was reading my Bible and found a notecard that I had written on over a year ago when I was at a church in League City, Texas. It was like a new blessing all over again to read the words that inspired me once before. What I had written, blocked out, and underlined then is what I needed to hear this morning: Faithful means to remain steadfast. God is the perfect example of steadfast. He does not waver in his love, his support, his encouragement, or his parenting =)

I want to be more faithful. I want to be steadfast and consistent in my life. I want to hold on to the most important things even when everything seems chaotic and I am pulled in different directions. Sometimes I get side tracked. Not on purpose, but I am a very spontaneous, free spirit that can easily get off course. I need God to pull me back in sometimes…. and He does =) I am grateful for His gentle reminders. At times, I am totally like a wondering child…No wonder He calls us His children! Thank you, Father for being faithful and steadfast…and patient!

Update

Hello friends! Hope all is well with you guys. I just wanted to give you an update. I am doing great! I am crazy busy right now with the wedding only 15 days away! I may not be writing much, but please know that I am thinking about you guys and praying for you! God is so good! This is another wonderful step in my journey! Much love and many blessing~ Charli =)

Oh what a beautiful morning… Oh what a beautiful day!

WooHoo! 174 this morning! 9 more pounds to reach my most recent goal that I set! Stepping up my workouts is paying off!

I feel good….like I knew that I would! =)

Awesome workouts…. great food choices… peace in my spirit… feeling wonderful …176.

God is good… all the time!

Here we go!

I got in a great workout yesterday! I did Zumba… which I love…. and then my Monday (even though it was Tuesday) strength training workout! It was late and I was tired but I made a promise that I would get in my workout no matter what and I did. I slept amazing and woke up feeling incredible. My food choices were pretty good yesterday and since Sunday, I am down to 177. I plan on going full force and I am excited to see what God is gonna do in my life! Have a beautiful day, my friends!

Many Blessings~

Mirrors

Sometimes mirrors can be our friends =) and sometimes they just need to be shattered…LOL

On a serious note, whether it’s a mirror or a reflection in a window or your own image staring back at you as you look into the water, WE are a reflection of SOMETHING. The question is…. what do we reflect?

A few months ago, when I did the Daniel’s fast, people repeatedly said things to me like… “You’re glowing”… “You seem so happy”… “You are so positive.” I think what I was reflecting in my life was that I had given this weight struggle to God. I had asked for his guidance and I was loving the answers He was giving me. I asked, “What should I be eating to keep my temple healthy?” He answered in His Word… “What comes from a seed.” So I did that…. and I felt amazing and saw incredible results. I prayed about what kind of exercise I should be doing… I was led in many directions to several different fitness activities that I enjoyed. So I did that too…. and my energy was unstoppable. I was doing what I feel God gave me as answers to my earnest prayers. My emotions were balanced, my thoughts were clearer, and I felt awesome! I was reflecting God’s glory and the work He was doing in my life.

My blog is evidence that I have been struggling over the past few months. I have had wonderful mountain top experiences and I have had some pretty rough valley experiences. When I look at the big picture and go back to read my struggles, I can see so clearly what a difference there was in this journey when I was truly seeking God’s ways. It’s so obvious when I am committed to doing things God’s way, and likewise… so obvious when I am trying to do it on my own. When we are on top of the mountain, it’s easy to say…”OK, God… I got this…. I’ll take it from here.” No one consciously says that, but we take on that attitude. A least, that’s what I did.

And how ironic… the day I ended my Daniel’s fast, I weighed 179. I have spent 3 months bouncing around and yet Sunday morning… I weighed 179… right where I left off when I thought I could do this on my own.

Sunday morning I prayed about where I am in this journey and later that morning I heard the most incredible sermon at church. Our Associate Pastor spoke about mirrors. I felt that I was the only one in that room and I needed every word of what he said. I realize that even when I was in the valley… I was reflecting…. but it wasn’t God’s glory that people could see in me… it was my own pride and failed attempts to run the show. But check this out! I loved what he said on Sunday:

I John 3:2,3

Though for now it might appear to be dim and unclear, there will come a day when the glory of God is reflected clearly in all his people. We shall be changed, we shall be like him, and we shall see him, not as “through a glass darkly,” but as he really is, in all his glory. And those of us who love him will reflect this glory to one another.

“The Greek verb used for “reflect” can mean either “to behold oneself in a mirror” or “to serve as a mirror.” It was the property of mirrors back in those days (which were made of a flat, circular piece of cast metal) that the more polished the surface, the clearer the image. Continuous elbow grease was needed to keep away corrosion. The life and ministry of the believer are depicted as a mirror that is in need of continual polishing so as to reproduce an ever-increasing extent of the glorious knowledge and truths of God’s Word.”

Wow! That really hit home for me. There is comfort in realizing I am still being polished! LOL Polish Away, Lord! Make me shine and reflect Your glory!

Is it possible?

Is it possible to reach my goal weight of 165 by my wedding? This morning I was up again to 179…. Is it realistic for me to kick it in serious gear and work out “Biggest Loser” style and reach my goal in 28 days?

Someone said to me… “It’s too late.”

Ya know what I say to that?

WATCH ME!

On the fourth and final day of juicing….

Yes…I know… I’ve got some explaining to do…lol

The fourth day of juicing was not so good. I did not feel well and basically decided that I enjoyed the whole juice thing but a total juice fast was not working for me. Mainly because when you are doing a complete juice fast, it is recommended that you do not do hard workouts. I pretty much decided that I would rather eat well and push myself physically than to juice only and not feel up to working out. So, I ditched Day 5 and started eating real food.

On the positive side… I went from 177 to 173 and I felt good about that.

On the not so positive side… After the fast was over, I went a little crazy. I did what I always do but swear that I never will…. Can you relate? It’s like I had the mind set that I was making up for lost food or something…. I ate whatever I wanted …. And too much of it…. So what good did it do to juice for four days?

It gets worse… Our family had a stressful event that required us to make a quick 3 day trip to the Dallas area. I pretty much tapped into every addiction I have ever had… (except sugar) I had chips and burgers and pizza and blah blah blah…. I even drank sodas! What the? Why do I get this all or nothing mentality? My hearts desire would be to consistently eat clean and move… Enjoy occasional celebrations, but realize it is not necessary to throw in the towel and go full force into the wrong direction.

I have not stepped on the scale and I don’t want to. The last number I saw was 173 and I am going to keep working hard until I feel better. I do not need another reason to feel bad about my week of chaos. Today marks the 30 day countdown until my wedding. When I started this journey, I did not have a wedding day weight in mind, but now I do. If I can reach 165 by my wedding day, I will be ecstatic! That would be a total of 30 pounds lost since May 3rd and I can’t feel bad about that, right!?!?!

God, what is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting myself through this unnecessary turmoil? I knew this journey would be hard, but when I mess up so royally, I feel like such a disappointment. I am like a child… When I start to make a choice that I know is not best… My heart tells me that I can call on You for strength, but my mind turns my thoughts to my own “will-power” – something that I think is non-existant. Obviously, that never works out too good…. It amazes me that I have to learn this same lesson over and over and over. You tell us that You are our Strength. Your word states countless times that we don’t have to face our trials alone…. And yet… I take on the biggest struggle in my life and look past your provision. Forgive me, Father, and help me to pick up the pieces of my shattered ego and keep moving forward.

Psalm 46

 1 God is our refuge and strength,
       an ever-present help in trouble.
 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
       and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

 3 though its waters roar and foam
       and the mountains quake with their surging.       

 4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
       the holy place where the Most High dwells.

 5 God is within her, she will not fall;
       God will help her at break of day.

 6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
       he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

 7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
       the God of Jacob is our fortress.

 8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
       the desolations he has brought on the earth.

 9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
       he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
       he burns the shields [b] with fire.

 10 “Be still, and know that I am God;
       I will be exalted among the nations,
       I will be exalted in the earth.”

 11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
       the God of Jacob is our fortress.

On the third day of juicing…..

Wow! My energy was incredible today! I started my list of to do’s at 7:30 this morning and did not stop until about 9:00pm. It was an awesome and productive day! I will post details for my Wednesday juice choices and my workout tonight!

Who knew needing a belt could be so exciting! Suh-weet!

Have a wonderful day!

On the second day of juicing….

My day started off great. I slept amazing and woke up feeling very rested and energetic. For breakfast, I juiced apples, strawberries and blackberries. It was good but a little bit tart for my taste. My daughter thought it was perfect and absolutely loved it! I took my V-8 juices with me and enjoyed one around mid morning. I had a very busy day, I was running errands, going to class and studying…. when all of a sudden I did not feel so well. It may have been partially my fault, but I hit a weird feeling that slowed me down and almost made me ditch the juice. When I was at the mall, I decided that a natural juice from Frulatti sounded good, so I ordered a fresh squeezed strawberry lemonade with splenda. Well, I was loving it until about 1/3 into it, when the acids hit my empty stomach. I felt horrible. By the time I got home, I felt even worse and wouldn’t you know it… I got home at 5:15 and my kids reminded me that we had to be at Back to School Night at 6:00. Whahhh… all I wanted to do was lay down. Since I was feeling yuck and knew I needed something quick to soothe my stomach, I made a peanut butter fold over sandwich. I looked at it laying on the counter and thought “Now, how can I go on to my blog and admit that I bailed on Day TWO of my juice fast?!?! So, I left the sandwich there……… and quickly made a veggie juice that I heated up and enjoyed as a soup. I juiced carrots, celery, bell peppers and a slice of onion. It was actually pretty good. I poured my heated soup into a mug and out the door we ran to the school. By the time we got there, I was feeling much better. I guess my levels just dipped and I wasn’t prepared. I am so glad that I didn’t give up!

Since my muscles were sore from yesterdays workout and I was feeling such unpleasant effects of the detox, I did not work out. I went to bed early and a enjoyed yet another amazing nights sleep. Today, I feel great again! Looking forward to Day 3!

Have a wonderful day, my friends!